*After the Rain, Comes the Rainbow*

Diary . .

Sunday, July 01, 2007

[no topic @ all...=(]

hi...its been 5 mths since i last blogged...in my mind " shld i blog or shld i nt?" hahaz... coz i've been writing diaries secretly...=) hahaz..i feel dat its a better way to keep track of my feelings n e impt events in my life so dat one day when i think thru e old times i will nt forget all these memories bcoz i find dat i do hav STM (short-term memory) sometimes!! LOLz... diaries r better coz nobody reads it so no one noes wat u really think unless some1 is so kpo to sneak in & read it lol...anyway..i hav been on hols since last wk aft my clinical attachments yea! =P

y is it so diff to juz speak wat my mind thinks..? always hav to struggle wif wat to say..shld i ask or shld i nt ask? or to juz keep my mouth shut let e things b as "norm" & lead my life as though nth is upon my heart? bt i noe dat i juz need a few days to feel contented wif wat i hav nw & stop complaining...bt soon e whole cycle will start again... which means e same prob dat i felt comes back all over again den fade away...stop a while n start...haiz... when will this ever stop for mi?!!! hw do i solve tis?!! frustrated...y do i feel dat i m always e one dat hav a need to b met, e 1 dat is always so sticky? am i sticky? am i irritating dat e more time u spend wif mi will b wasted away?

`Story Written @ 4:01 AM

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

[learnt smth today...]

went for meals on wheels today... nth much.. bt learnt smth frm jimmy.. hahaz... i realised hw impt it is to view things frm other ppl's perspective if nt will realli misunderstand them bcoz of a diff opinion... hahaz...ya dats all bt its smth dat i really need to learn & apply...=) ya n staying at hm can b quite bored sometimes..i miss e days of going out wif my frens & my mum!! seems lyd veri long nv spend time wif these ppl le... hahaz...bt i will b going to work veri soon!! yea.. bt results oso coming out soon coz fl e information counter always gt e correct & fastest news de.. hahaz...a bit scared, so i need to trust God. k lah.. dats all for e day...=P

`Story Written @ 6:42 PM

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

[Crave for tang yuan]

back to blogging again... nth to do nw.... recently juz gt a job at TK, a job dat i really prayed for, suitable for all my weekends schedule... & wrking wif childrens too!! hahaz.. an answered prayer... so its gd to wait sometimes...=)

today durng volunteering, took a test frm e radio wif jimmy, hahaz.. its abt gt bf/gf den neglect frens de topic...lolz den jimmy gt e best ans which is balance. while i gt e more towards e bf/gf side...lolz.. so inaccurate...hahaz...den kana suan by him... sianz...den he say wat muz "hong hong lie lie" den considered in love mah...say i so "leng jing" veri strange...make mi feel lyd some kind of alien lyd dat...realli muz "hong hong lie lie" meh? lolz..dun understand...

hahaz.. guess dats e oni part i can rem for e day until nw bah...coz din do much today...hahaz... juz remembered dat last nite suddenly gt e craving for dumpling balls.. mayb due to e show "shi xiong di" bah...hahaz.. a nice show oso..hahaz.. dats all for today!! a bit boring bah... hahaz..=P

`Story Written @ 5:40 PM

Thursday, January 04, 2007

[Volunteering today was fun!!]

hahaz... half a day gone liao... bt i feel dat today's volunteering was 1 of e best days... hahaz...its so fun...jimmy actually tot we nt following so he left 1st... hahaz.. luckily he din go veri far.. hahaz.. den went to a blk where i noe there r cats at lvl 4...= Li ting was indeed braver den mi although she scared of cats too!! hahaz.. hi 5!! i can tell she oso scared lor.. bt she keep telling mi "dun run" in case it follow mi.. hahaz... indeed lor... e cat realli follow mi for a while...( e cat went up e stairs upon seeing us) wah.. so scary lor...hahaz... luckily li ting was there wif mi if nt... i dun dare to imagine.. den... we went to e other blk.. tis time i m alone..coz though i went there a few times ar.. i still couldn't reg e apartments..at lvl 9.. den walk ard saw an old lady standing at e door shouting & talking to herself.. made mi scared...coz frm far i saw 1 person w/o upper body!! i gt scared bt no choice i hav to walk.. den oni when i walked closer den i realised she is juz hunchback (coz i wasn't wearing my specs!) hahaz...made my imagination run wild oni... hahaz..bt i still scared leh... coz she looked at mi when i walk pass her... den made mi forget dat i need to lvl 7... i din think properly & went to lvl 8 instead! of coz i made a mistake liao & actually din realised it until dat person call jimmy.. hahaz.. so made another trip back lor..luckily e food is still there..=) during tis period of volunteering wif jimmy made mi learn alot of things frm him.. & i actually open up & told him many things which i din dare to tell anyone else..hahaz.. he is juz lyd a elder bro to mi (dun xiang wai wai) =) hahaz... u c.. 1/2 a day oni leh... i gt so many things to write.. hahaz.. later going swimming wif xw, fl, mh they all at MP.. hahaz.. nv go b4 bt i m sure it will b fun!! hahaz...thx for reading my experiences!! =P

`Story Written @ 2:53 PM

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

[yea!! blogger is back!!]

Yea!! after a long while when i couldn't create post in blogger, finally i can blog again!! hahaz..New year 2007 juz came 2 days ago...& i saw e veri nice fireworks dat nite!! it would look nicer if i were at e place when e fireworks were let out..hahaz..=) e show "One litre of tears" juz had its last episode in scv juz nw... soooo touching!! its so nice dats its worth e name 1 litre of tears. coz every episode will make ur tears drop... really every episode!! hahaz.. i highly recommend tis show to any of u...=P hahaz.. actually nth to write nw.. juz hope dat i can find a temp job soon wif my frens bah!! jia you!!=D

`Story Written @ 4:43 PM

Thursday, November 23, 2006

[time flies...]

back to blogging again...nth to do today... so sian... watch tv whole day until veri tired...bt i look forward to nxt wk when i will start volunteering... hahaz.. i m so happy dat i made e right choice..yest while slping i tot back things dat happen in e past.. den i remembered dat in e beginning of tis yr, we wanted so much for tis yr to end veri fast, den nw come to think of it, tis yr is so short, time flies... so fast we've finished our O lvls..n every1 is lyd going our seperate ways veri soon... hope our friendship nv ends...

i look forward to spending time wif u... bt somehw i realised dat we will nv b free bcoz after our studies, we will still hav other commitments to do... dunno whether u still rem wat we've planned to do in e past... i doubt u do... juz nw mh told mi abt e fading of feelings dunno whether u experince it or nt... i hope u din n nv will...hahaz... mayb i m juz too sensitive... anyway...let's wait n c :D

`Story Written @ 3:28 AM

Friday, November 17, 2006

[speechless...]

i'm back... finally 3 days more plus 1 paper...i'm happy yet sad... coz i dunno hw to help u... i dunno wat to say to make u feel better i wan to c hw r u bt i cant bear to noe dat u're sad coz i dunno hw to comfort u... i can oni wait, wait for u to tell mi watever u wan to tell mi... i wish to share ur burden... bt i noe i cant do anything to help... mayb i shld pray, pray for things to happen n i noe i will do it...bcoz i dun wan to juz sit n do nth at all... it makes mi feel useless... haha... things changed le.. noe dat u're fine i feel much better nw... i wish to understand u more...coz i keep guessing hw u feel... so tired bt i dun dare to ask!! so ironic leh...haiz...nth to say nw...bye..blog again...

`Story Written @ 4:24 AM